I died a little tonight...

That was the final straw.
You did what you wanted to do.
Are you happy now?
With what you did,
something in me died
and I don't think I can ever come back.
Congratulations...
You just lost another daughter.

A song and the silence that followed

I'm Still Here

I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away
'Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

The cities grow
the rivers flow
Where you are,
I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right
and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
I'm still here
Still here

Seeing the ashes in my heart
The smile the widest
When I cry inside
and my insides blow apart
I tried to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be

The cities grow
the rivers flow
Where you are,
I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
I'm still here

Maybe tonight
It's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today
It's gonna be okay

I will remember

I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
and I wanted you to come
and make me whole
When I saw you yesterday
But you didn't noticed
And you just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are,
I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

The lights go out,
the bridges burn
Once you're gone,
you can't return
I'm still here

Remember how you used to say
I'd be the one to runaway
But I'm still here

The truth.

I have reached that point in my life

when all I want to do is disappear.

Money Making Business

I am sick and tired of you.

Of your lies,

the schemes,

the drama.

Why is it always about
Money!

Money!

Money!

Is that the reason why parents give birth to their children?
So that one day,
their children can buy them a house
send money regularly
and pay for every whim that they may have?

No.
I will not marry God-knows-who just for me to be able to have the darn papers.
No.
I won't lie nor cover up for you and your DA MAN of a boyfriend while my beloved dad is sick.
No.
I am no longer a puppet to your every wish and demand.
No.
We will never do such a thing if we were to have kids of our own.
We will work as much we can and save up,
so that me and my wife may be able to provide for ourselves during our retirement years.
We will never burden our children for what our responsibilities were in the first place.

Our children will never be a money making business in our lives.