Fuck you 2013.  

Fuck. You.

Sweet surprise

To say that I have been stressed-out for weeks is an understatement.  I have cried, stayed silent, slept, got angry, became irritable, stayed-up, became restless, and to top it all off, I experienced palpitations for nights on end. I can't slow down.  I can't breathe.  I can't even help myself.  I still feel lost to be honest...

...but there are moments.  Moments like these that remind me that life isn't hopeless after all.  

Thank you for the surprise, but most of all, thank you for being the best sister in the world.  Not just for the gifts, the surprises and the likes but because I know that you will always have my back as I have yours  :)  

Shadows Within

"I've tried different ways 

But it's all the same 

At the end of the day 

 I have myself to blame"

Where We Will Be

We met somewhere between the moon and the stars

Colliding, swirling, lights dancing about

Sparks flying and somehow we knew

That we share a love, somewhere between the moon and the stars

We live separately somewhere between the moon and the stars

Where kisses and whispers seem so far

Painfully wishing you are near where I am

Somewhere between the moon and the stars

But I  know we’ll be home one day

That perfect time and that perfect place

Where we will share, grow and finally live

Somewhere between the moon and the stars.

"The Artist Is Present"

For those who need to see how love looks like, this moment would be it.  
"...because we never stop silently loving those who we once loved out loud."

"Marina Abramovic and Ulay started an intense love story in the 70s, performing art out of the van they lived in. When they felt the relationship had run its course, they decided to walk the Great Wall of China, each from one end, meeting for one last big hug in the middle and never seeing each other again. 

At her 2010 MoMa retrospective Marina performed ‘The Artist Is Present’ as part of the show, where she shared a minute of silence with each stranger who sat in front of her. Ulay arrived without her knowing and this is what happened."

♬ ♪ Just Give Me A Reason ♪ ♫

... Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent 
And we can learn to love again 
I never stopped 
You're still written in the scars on my heart 
You're not broken just bent 
And we can learn to love again...

Fire

That was all it took 

and I have come undone.

Playing with shadows

clutching at straws

my mind is in turmoil

heartbeat racing

as I come alive

It's a yes,

a no,

a maybe.

I stop,

I should,

I must,

my brain declaring what must be

as my heart tells a different story.