The Queen of Desperation

Does it haunt you at night
that no matter what you do
no matter what you say
no matter what you wear

you will never be me
you won't even come close
to being like me

you will forever live in the shadow
lurking and lost in desperation
scrambling for bits and pieces
clamoring like a rat in the night
isn't it a pathetic life?

but then again,
you have always been
pathetic as can be.