Will "everything" ever be the same?

I'm now lost.

Everything used to be a great word. I used to associate "everything" with "freedom". I tell you everything because I can. When I say something to you it is not a mere whim for verbal diarrhea. When I tell you an event or a thought and even the simplest of dreams, the only thing lacking is your presence when it happened because in the story that I am retelling, I do not leave out anything for you. But now I find myself losing to a battle that I was not aware of. That by opening up to you the way I had gotten used to would now mean a tragedy waiting to happen just around the corner.

I can no longer tell you everything.

I am suddenly turned into an insensitive devil who spits balls of fire without me knowing it. I become a villain who feels horrible in the end when this very villain never deviced a devious plan in the first place. I am bound to say sorry when I never waged a war right from the start.

When I tell you something in yellow why do you turn it into red?

I speak to you of orange and you turn it into red.

I tell you about green and you turn it into red.

I say something in pink and you turn it into red.

I am getting weary of this monochromatic world. Why turn me into a foe when I come to you as a partner? Must I now guard what I say? Can one live like that for the rest of one's life with someone? I am bound by your love and yet I feel that I am now gagged.

I am so lost.

What Tarot Card Are You?

You are Temperance

Time. Ages. Transformation. Involuntary change

Temperance is another card of aspiration, but also of much change. It often
represents complex situations. Positively, you can harmonize contrary
forces.

Temperance is, on a surface level, about "tempering." The original pouring from cup to cup might have been about cutting wine with water. So this is a card about moderation. There is, however, another angle to the card, that of merging seemingly impossible opposites. Sagittarius, the centaur, merges beast and man into a unique creature. And then there is the bow and arrow, one moving, one stationary, working together to point the way. Temperance may be, at first glance, a warning for you to "temper" your behavior, to cut your wine with water. But it may also be a reminder to that seemingly irreconcilable opposites may not be irreconcilable at all. Belief that fiery red and watery blue cannot be merged may be the only thing standing in the way of blending the two. Change the belief, measure out each with care, and you can create otherworldly violet.

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The happy life cycle

I got this as a forwarded message and it made me smile upon reading it. Come to think of it, people slave away all their lives working hard only to end up in nursing homes waiting for their clock to stop ticking.

It would make more sense if the life cycle is all backwards.

You die first and get it out of the way.

You live in a home for the aged, get a silver watch and go to work.

You work for 40 years until your'e young enough to party, drink booze and get high.

You then become a kid and play all day long with no worries.

Become a little baby all cared for by his parents.

Then you go back to the womb and spend your last nine months all warm and peaceful until you finish off as an orgasm.